I was unable to post anything over the last few days as time just didn't permit it. Anyway I made up my mind that I was going to do it today and reflect on the things that have been happening over the last few days. I started exercises at last, I think it has been over a year and a half since I did any form of physical activity that could even be vaguely construed of exerting my muscles. It has been four days now since I stared and I find that I sleep better and feel a lot less restless in the night. I am of the view now that Bi Polar shouldn't be treated only with drugs. Sure you need the daily dose of Sodium Valporate to maintain the chemical balance of the brain but the other drugs which are meant to control your highs and lows should be only attempted after everything has failed. Stress relaxation techniques which I am slowly learning about are far more effective than drugs towards this end. I have noticed that when I am involved in work and things are not going according to schedule or I am getting frustrated, I tend to get anxious and high ( the Manic State ) and at the end of the day when I have not achieved what I had intend to do and this is generally what happens, I get into a dip ( the depression ). The problem most of the time is that things don't get done because the other events in the chain don't get accomplished as it should and the resulting frustration leaves you mad as hell. Since everybody knows that you are Bi Polar this becomes a convenient excuse to cover their short comings and when you decide to blow a fuse it is considered intolerant. I some times wonder how these a so called normal persons, supposedly sane would cope in the real world and what would be their excuses then if they had to deal with the crap I deal with every day.
The good news for me is that now I have a room mate. We both have common interests especially in music and have similar personalities, which are different enough to be complementary. Once I start working again Monday to Friday from the first of November, I would be looking forward to my weekends here.
I also have found that at the end of the day when I take the trouble to wish everybody good night and crack a joke I find that it lifts my spirits. That coupled with my exercises have now resulted in my feeling sleepy by 9.30 PM as opposed to 11 PM or 12 PM normally.
